Can We Get Clingy With Our Spirit Team?

I have no friends or ones that I could speak my mind with; hence, I say I have no friends. Because of this, I cling to the voices in my head. I have grown to enjoy our conversations and jokes, debates and arguments. Sounds crazy, yes I know. But it’s true. They have been my guide throughout the years, constantly guiding my way to wherever I am and whoever I have become today. So, in that sense, I don't think it’s crazy at all!

In the course of my own evolution, I have reached a point, where the voices have started to grow more silent. The literal feeling is that I have lost my spiritual connection. But, also, I have noticed the lesson of intuition. The knowledge, wisdom and experiences that I have gained under the guidance of these voices is now what forms the basis of my intuition process. My ability to feel into the direction or answer.

But the silence is the most frustrating part I feel. I sat today and wondered if the need for constant communication (even if in my head) is what is causing me to feel this frustration? I then wondered if I was being too much for my own spirit team?

Something suddenly answered, that they are part of me, within me, it’s not possible to be too much for myself and so the answer is 'No'. Maybe I have not yet connected with external guides. But also maybe, all this while it has been a wisdom from within me guiding me. Why am I writing my story? What’s so great? I dont know but I do want to be. I have knowledge that needs to be shared. Maybe it’s not time yet? Am I not ready, lord? I dont feel ready right now.